This roller coaster ride of adoption is an interesting journey full of unknowns. We are still praying and hoping the ban on adoptions will lift soon in our adopting country. BUT…we are learning in the process, and some of the lessons are life changing. We are learning the meaning of sovereignty as God clearly shows us who is in control of all things. Our hearts desire is to bring Emmanuel home as fast as possible. We were deeply saddened when we received the email while serving with our youth group in Chicago informing us of the suspensions, but it also did not come as a complete shock. We are in a spiritual batter beyond our comprehension. Faith is trusting in the one whose very nature is defined by love and righteousness.
We realize some people think we are absolutely crazy for starting over with children. The concept is kind of crazy isn’t it? Sacrificing financially, leaving our home to go to another place and then adopt a child into our family, promising them love, hope, protection and a future. But so was God to send His Son. So was God to forgive us, to adopt us. So was Jesus for leaving the perfection of heaven to be homeless, penniless and murdered while livening out a life we are called to follow. So that, he can provide love, hope, protection and a future for his adoptive children.
Some have even said perhaps this is a sign from God you shouldn’t go through with it. Here is the problem…I was spiritually adopted by God, who is in the of teaching, molding and shaping my heart and mind to be a warrior. I am such a weak person in some of the sin in life, but the thought of having to set an example for my son challenges me to be stronger.