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Healing

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Silence...no t.v...no radio...no sound except the rain coming down outside.  In these moments I tend to be very reflective.  This  was the toughest week yet in regards to our adoption.  The last three weeks have been amazing with my family and I have enjoyed every minute...but we know...we don't have to say a word...we just look at each other with a certain glance and we know that we thinking about Emmanuel.  Adoption update:  Fortunately, this ‘hold’ only applies to our region, not the other areas of African country we are adopting in.  So, adoptions are still processing elsewhere in country, it’s just that any families with children in our immediate vicinity must wait until the policy regarding residency is hashed out. In case you missed it, they are trying to change the law which would require us to stay in country for three months prior to bring our son home.  Hopefully this will be an issue that resolves quickly.  Thank you: As I said before...this has been a tough week b

If not me who...a poem from the heart

Sounds fill my head from all directions The beating of my heart The voices crying out in the darkness If not me who If not you who Faces flash before my eyes Their cries fill my head My heart begins to overflow The sounds begin to grow louder I am overwhelmed If not me who If not you who Who will go to the voices crying in the darkness? Who will go to the faces? Who will walk them through the storm? Who will show them the way home? If not me who You cried out and said I will go! I will go to then! You heard the voice crying in the darkness You heard the voice of the Great I Am. Alone in the quietness of your room God heard your prayer As you fell on your knees God watched as the tears fell down your face Before time began, God selected you God, in His infinite wisdom Knew in His heart you were the one You were the one who will care for this special little boyl. HE created her by hand just for YOU! God heard your prayers God placed him in your hands forever. Well done, my

Crazy?

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This roller coaster ride of adoption is an interesting journey full of unknowns.    We are still praying and hoping the ban on adoptions will lift soon in our adopting country.    BUT… we are learning in the process, and some of the lessons are life changing.    We are learning the meaning of sovereignty as God clearly shows us who is in control of all things.    Our hearts desire is to bring Emmanuel home as fast as possible.    We were deeply saddened when we received the email while serving with our youth group in Chicago informing us of the suspensions, but it also did not come as a complete shock.    We are in a spiritual batter beyond our comprehension.    Faith is trusting in the one whose very nature is defined by love and righteousness. We realize some people think we are absolutely crazy for starting over with children.    The concept is

Yesterday

As most of you know the adoption can be along difficult journey. We received an email yesterday from our adoptive country stating all adoptions have been suspend until further notice. The government is trying to change the law and require us to stay their for three months. We have no idea what this may mean for our blended family. We are deeply sadden but we know he is sovereign. More soon...

Revelation and timing

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Adoption update: The brakes have been put on. We are in a holding pattern waiting for forms to clear and the adoptive African country to approve our paperwork and provide new travel dates. I can’t say we were surprised, but it did leave us a little emotionally drained. For two months, we were moving at hundred miles an hour and within seconds you are complete stop. We are in the process of designing T-shirt’s which we will make available soon. The proceeds will go towards our adoption fund to bring our little man home. Yeah…I probably need to ask a real graphic designer instead of trying to do it myself or stealing someone else’s idea. We are also open to other fundraising ideas, so please feel free to share with us. I have also started reading Orphanology by Tony Merida & Rick Morton. The timing of this book for me personally couldn’t be better. If I am brutally honest, there are times I stop and wonder what are we doing? Is this really the right thing to do? As one of our instr

Could Emmanuel be our Christmas gift?

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Sorry for the delay but things have been moving quickly recently in regard to our adoption.    The process is complicated and the paperwork appears too endless but the excitement grows with each passing day.    The good news is there is a strong possibility we may travel in July to spend time with our son.    The bad news is we may not be able to bring him home for another   five to six months after our initial meeting.    Of course, this brings up a ton of questions, and we can't help but wonder if he will even remember us. How will he feel when we turn and walk away?    This is where I am so thankful to know our sovereign God is in complete control, and we must learn to trust him in all things. So now, we are praying to have Emmanuel home before Christmas.  Below is a picture of little man's room we completed Sunday.         I have rea